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What do you do when it feels like you've stumbled into a pit of your own making, a towering mistake over something seemingly trivial, leaving you feeling like a fool? Do you muster the courage to fight your way through the aftermath, or do you prefer to retreat into the shadows, hiding from the fallout? Perhaps it’s intertwined with deeper trust issues within your family, or it reflects cracks in your support system. How do you begin to unpack and process emotions when you finally allow yourself to feel them again after so long?  For a long time, shutting down those feelings provided a protective cocoon—a safe realm where you were shielded from hurt. But now, an unexpected person has stepped into your life, and you’ve tentatively opened the door to your emotions, grasping your humanity once more. Yet—just when you thought it was safe to feel—this happens.  You've spent months grappling with anxiety, holding it at bay with steely determination until this moment. Was it a result...

was so excited to write today, starting a new project and all putting things on paper, creating. Then events turn that excitement to worry, anxiety and looking at a blank page with no where to begin. Ideas gone out the window in a flash. Feelings of guilt and shame for saying things that were never ment. For pushing so hard and upsetting someone you love so much. How do you find that spark again,the desire to create something for that person. A gift of yourself. Not being able to deal with the anxiety is the worst part. You know what the trigger is but how to you fix it is the problem. Worry to the point of being physically ill and no clue of how to fix any, write a word. Let alone eat. As much as you just want to shut out the world, turn off communication and hide from any and everyone, finding the strength to work so hard to keep the communication there, just in case they might want you. Why is it being alone can be so gut wrenching? your heart aches for someone, anyone to talk to, g...

After being in survival mode for so long and having to make sure every little detail of your life is protected, how do you just stop and enjoy. You know the people you have around you only have your best interest at heart. They love you and want you safe and happy. enjoying life and all its got to offer. How do you find the courage to just trust and go with the flow? Trust.....now theres a word. having trusted people over the years, with a few its got me hurt, heartbroken and just wondering if its all worth it/ im begining to see it is all worth it but how do we just let go of that little bit of doubt thats holding us back? Making us question IF its really ok, Have we really found what it is we have truly been looking for? How do you honestly know that the doubt is truly gone, your worring for nothing and are you going to miss something special????

Its one of those times where doubt is playing on the mind. IS the gifts you have been given all real, or is it just a dream. At times being to scared to wake up because your afraid that what you finally have in your life makes you really happy and feeling safe. When little things happen that you finally begin to trust that things are real and it is happening, you are safe and happy, protected. You begin to think that all those things as a little girl that your life is suppose to be is finally coming true. Heres is the question................Why at times do you have to wait what seems like a lifetime for what you have been looking for? We go through survival to just make it through life. The walks of hell we all take that make us stronger. Is it the fact that when we finally do find it we have this grat apprication for what was missing???

doing my best to keep everything in balance and keep everyone happy -- BUT me. I feel like im treading water and its getting harder all the time. Made the decision where i am but its not really where i want to be. My life mistakes are STILL being thrown back in my face. I cant do the things i want because everyone has THEIR own opinion and i cant prove anyone wrong. Im trying to get things done and work hard and how do you do that with no encouragement or support. Im ALONE. how do you find the inner strength to keep going. there is someone, who cares and is supportive and it means so much. how do i find the right reasons to keep going. it is really all worth it in the end. I know it is but today. i just really wonder. maybe its just feeling sorry for myself, hormones, depression. i dont know. im trying to keep the positive thoughts and special dreams going. just to help though the really long crappy days. kinda have things to look forward to but, everyone keeps reminding me i screwed u...

Ya ever had that one moment where you fall in love and its so out of the blue..unexpected. someone comes along and has such am in pack. For the first time you actually feel. ..happy..not an orphan any more....someone actually cares what happens to me. Consider myself emotionally fragile and now feeling loved. special....BUT is it really all ok, or is it just a dream. i will wake up tomorrow and it will all be over.......Is this my chance to really figure out what makes me truly happy...the one person that i can truly trust with the demons of my life that need dealt with??? Gentleness, caring, trust, love.............the question is................am i finally save to really feel loved, and wanted...can i stop worrying about being abandoned again?

I am cared for and have to learn that its enough. With it being hubby's first wife's birthday yesterday. Its the yearly reminder I'm the odd man out. Know i will never be truly loved. he says he loves me BUT his heart will always belong to her. The one thing I want will NEVER happen....so, have to learn that being cared for is enough. Knowing that I matter to someone. Its time I give up on romance and the silly idea of what love really is. There is different kinds of love...for family, your kids.....but its the hopeless, cant live without, romantic, sappy love....the one thing I WILL NEVER HAVE. The one thing I want.....its time to let go of that idea. I care for my family,love my daughters, BUT I just cant take another chance on love and romance. It just hurts too much. How do you turn off feeling for someone,they know how you feel but how do you let go? Know that what they bring to the relationship is enough? I want them in my life,they have given me so much. I have found...

What do you do when you feel lost. Abandon in a way. Left on your own to figure it out.I know I'm strong enough to keep things going. do what works for me. Keep it simple but also keep the logical thinking and remember what i have learned so far. I feel i have gained a lot in a short time. wonder if its time to put some of that to use. Stand on my own. I hate these feelings of being so lost, alone....I am cared for i know that....not the problem. I need to trust it. Still remembering to take care of myself in all of it. Make me feel special...that I really am worth it.....I just need to find a way to believe it, trust it...............but how

How to turn a case of frustration into positive energy. Lack of information and many questions needing answers. Where to start? Making a difference, just being heard. I'm a so called interested party BUT my thoughts and feelings don't count. I live with things every day. Apparently the stress and strain of everything doesn't matter. I have to make sure that I am heard. Write a well worded document,making a statement about how things are, what a day is like,how i am feeling. trying to understand WHY I feel the way I do? How to fix the feelings I have? Being angry, frustrated. Trying to make sure I am taking care of myself, getting the love and encouragement I need. How do I do that when there is not any. When something I want I know deep down i will never have. Its just an idea that's getting me through a rough time. So...am I really fooling myself. Tonight I feel so alone...questioning what is really getting me through.I have the love and care of those I consider close...

5 Positive things for today 1)got outside, exercise 2)time alone 3)talked to friends 4)listened to music and looked at pictures to help relax me 5)took a nap **5 Negative things 1)still angry about things I cant control -- still upset about things that are out of my control.need to let go and get on with things 2)Still think with my heart NOT my head -- work on NOT being so emotional about issues. 3)didn't journal -- started doing something that helps and didn't keep it going. making a point to go back to it. 4)didn't work on house, get it cleaned up -- get more disciplined at cleaning up. make a to do list. 5)take a little more time for me -- do some knitting or something that I ENJOY David gave me a positive negative flip -- everything has a positive/negative side....look for the positive no mater how small.

had a great conservation. I'm happy and cared for, i know it and its OK. yea, its an internet relationship but its happy and caring, fun and its important. to both of us. We don't get much time together but we make the most of it. We just enjoy each other. It does get heavy at times, BUT anything happens I know all i have to to is call. Ill get talked through it..the support will be there. Yes i am sex deprived BUT.....im seeing its OK...im sticking to what i want, the decisions i have made. Have gained some self respect....which i needed. Just want to be with him....i don't care if nothing happens....i know he cares for me, just as I do for him and that's enough. I'm OK with that.

its one of those days where its all way too much. Just getting from one hour to the next is the biggest chore. the pain of things is too much and how do you find the courage to let go. Is it being afraid of getting hurt again, no encouragement, feeling like your never going to be good enough. How do u really enjoy the so called me time? So much in my lap to deal with, and still find time for me....to work on me, so i can feel pretty, happy, loved......Why is that one word so hard to cope with? Its is so easy to say it but you really need to mean it at times. Be encouraging, supportive, caring. It could be the one thing that someone needs. Doesn't matter who does it, just to know that someone can see what your doing is a big help and is the right thing...maybe that's it, someone to say "hey,its all good, keep going. Not being afraid because you have been hurt in the past. Do we let ourselves get weighted down over feelings that we just need to leave alone? why do we make ou...

thoughts and feelings all over. feeling insecure, doubts. all things i dont need to worry about. I am loved, cared for by brothers and mates. Im strong and smart. What is it that makes me feel so out of wack? Is it missing something. just that reassuring cuddle or word. just knowing that you are special, cared for, cared about. needed.....even loved. Feeling Loved......why is it so important, the one thing that would give me the biggest boost and i dont have it. I feel so in a rut, so stuck.....the person i want the most. I cant have...probably will never have. Acceptance...yea, it bugs me and i hate whats happened..........i have to get past it for my sake. A lot of people depend on me, how do i take care of myself in the best way possible to be that supportive strong person that everyone needs me to be.BUT i also need to be.

how in the world do u make decisions for the right reasons when u realize you are so degeading yourself worth. When u realize that you are worth so much more. I felt cheap,worthless and was pleasing everyone but me. Not making me happy. I was pleasing my lovers and not me. Doing things i really didnt enjoy to be liked, even loved. How do i stay true to myself and stick to the decisions i have made. No web cams, internet sex,no nothing. Finding that its ok to stand up for what i believe in,be loved the way i want. Make love on my terms and if the guy doesnt like it, he doesnt have enough respect for me. Why has it taken this realization to see how i want to be truly loved.,that i can finally look at someone the right way. Loving romantic,as a human being with feeling and needs just like me.

Why is it so challenging in life to simply desire love? To feel loved and needed? It's perplexing how you can sit in a crowded room with someone yet still experience a profound sense of loneliness. The little moments—the ones that seem so simple yet hold immense significance—are often the very things we overlook. It’s in those precious instances of getting lost in one another’s presence, feeling the gentle caress of a cheek, sharing that first soft kiss, or being enveloped in someone’s arms while listening to the steady rhythm of their heartbeat. In those fleeting seconds, you feel an overwhelming sense of safety and protection. Why is it that when we finally discover love, it often blooms with someone who is miles away? In those moments, communication becomes the lifeline, transforming into the most vital connection between two hearts, transcending distance and time.