stop degrading myself.

how in the world do u make decisions for the right reasons when u realize you are so degeading yourself worth. When u realize that you are worth so much more. I felt cheap,worthless and was pleasing everyone but me. Not making me happy. I was pleasing my lovers and not me. Doing things i really didnt enjoy to be liked, even loved. How do i stay true to myself and stick to the decisions i have made. No web cams, internet sex,no nothing. Finding that its ok to stand up for what i believe in,be loved the way i want. Make love on my terms and if the guy doesnt like it, he doesnt have enough respect for me. Why has it taken this realization to see how i want to be truly loved.,that i can finally look at someone the right way. Loving romantic,as a human being with feeling and needs just like me.

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