Negative Frustration/Positive Energy

How to turn a case of frustration into positive energy. Lack of information and many questions needing answers. Where to start? Making a difference, just being heard. I'm a so called interested party BUT my thoughts and feelings don't count. I live with things every day. Apparently the stress and strain of everything doesn't matter. I have to make sure that I am heard. Write a well worded document,making a statement about how things are, what a day is like,how i am feeling. trying to understand WHY I feel the way I do? How to fix the feelings I have? Being angry, frustrated. Trying to make sure I am taking care of myself, getting the love and encouragement I need. How do I do that when there is not any. When something I want I know deep down i will never have. Its just an idea that's getting me through a rough time. So...am I really fooling myself. Tonight I feel so alone...questioning what is really getting me through.I have the love and care of those I consider close friends and family. Is that good enough......I guess for now it has to be.. the positive energy to keep me going.

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