Just happy

had a great conservation. I'm happy and cared for, i know it and its OK. yea, its an internet relationship but its happy and caring, fun and its important. to both of us. We don't get much time together but we make the most of it. We just enjoy each other. It does get heavy at times, BUT anything happens I know all i have to to is call. Ill get talked through it..the support will be there. Yes i am sex deprived BUT.....im seeing its OK...im sticking to what i want, the decisions i have made. Have gained some self respect....which i needed. Just want to be with him....i don't care if nothing happens....i know he cares for me, just as I do for him and that's enough. I'm OK with that.

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