Facing a blank Page

was so excited to write today, starting a new project and all putting things on paper, creating. Then events turn that excitement to worry, anxiety and looking at a blank page with no where to begin. Ideas gone out the window in a flash. Feelings of guilt and shame for saying things that were never ment. For pushing so hard and upsetting someone you love so much. How do you find that spark again,the desire to create something for that person. A gift of yourself. Not being able to deal with the anxiety is the worst part. You know what the trigger is but how to you fix it is the problem. Worry to the point of being physically ill and no clue of how to fix any, write a word. Let alone eat. As much as you just want to shut out the world, turn off communication and hide from any and everyone, finding the strength to work so hard to keep the communication there, just in case they might want you. Why is it being alone can be so gut wrenching? your heart aches for someone, anyone to talk to, give encouragement, support. How do you settle for being a low priority in life??