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What do you do when it feels like you've stumbled into a pit of your own making, a towering mistake over something seemingly trivial, leaving you feeling like a fool? Do you muster the courage to fight your way through the aftermath, or do you prefer to retreat into the shadows, hiding from the fallout? Perhaps it’s intertwined with deeper trust issues within your family, or it reflects cracks in your support system. How do you begin to unpack and process emotions when you finally allow yourself to feel them again after so long?  For a long time, shutting down those feelings provided a protective cocoon—a safe realm where you were shielded from hurt. But now, an unexpected person has stepped into your life, and you’ve tentatively opened the door to your emotions, grasping your humanity once more. Yet—just when you thought it was safe to feel—this happens.  You've spent months grappling with anxiety, holding it at bay with steely determination until this moment. Was it a result...

was so excited to write today, starting a new project and all putting things on paper, creating. Then events turn that excitement to worry, anxiety and looking at a blank page with no where to begin. Ideas gone out the window in a flash. Feelings of guilt and shame for saying things that were never ment. For pushing so hard and upsetting someone you love so much. How do you find that spark again,the desire to create something for that person. A gift of yourself. Not being able to deal with the anxiety is the worst part. You know what the trigger is but how to you fix it is the problem. Worry to the point of being physically ill and no clue of how to fix any, write a word. Let alone eat. As much as you just want to shut out the world, turn off communication and hide from any and everyone, finding the strength to work so hard to keep the communication there, just in case they might want you. Why is it being alone can be so gut wrenching? your heart aches for someone, anyone to talk to, g...

After being in survival mode for so long and having to make sure every little detail of your life is protected, how do you just stop and enjoy. You know the people you have around you only have your best interest at heart. They love you and want you safe and happy. enjoying life and all its got to offer. How do you find the courage to just trust and go with the flow? Trust.....now theres a word. having trusted people over the years, with a few its got me hurt, heartbroken and just wondering if its all worth it/ im begining to see it is all worth it but how do we just let go of that little bit of doubt thats holding us back? Making us question IF its really ok, Have we really found what it is we have truly been looking for? How do you honestly know that the doubt is truly gone, your worring for nothing and are you going to miss something special????

Its one of those times where doubt is playing on the mind. IS the gifts you have been given all real, or is it just a dream. At times being to scared to wake up because your afraid that what you finally have in your life makes you really happy and feeling safe. When little things happen that you finally begin to trust that things are real and it is happening, you are safe and happy, protected. You begin to think that all those things as a little girl that your life is suppose to be is finally coming true. Heres is the question................Why at times do you have to wait what seems like a lifetime for what you have been looking for? We go through survival to just make it through life. The walks of hell we all take that make us stronger. Is it the fact that when we finally do find it we have this grat apprication for what was missing???